Last year this day my husband and I tied the knot. I was 30. He was a few years older. We were not too young. We were expected to be mature. Experienced. Wise. Both had lived alone. Both had managed a household before. Both were comfortable professionally.
But we defied age. We fought like little kids. We fought for who does how much work in the house. We fought for sharing the cupboard space. We fought about who never gets up to answer the door for the maid. We fought about who sleeps more!
We were not the couple who would post ‘Aww! Sweetie, you complete me! How did I ever live without you!’
We were very much complete and alive before meeting each other!
We were not the couple who others looked at said, ‘Oh my you two! You make us believe in love!’
We were the couple to whom people said, ‘Are fir se jhagda kar liya!’
What kind of a couple are we?
I guess… The real type!!
Fresh off The Other Side
When you marry early, you have something to fear. It is the fear of ending up alone. But when you marry late, you have already overcome that fear. You have survived break-ups. You have learnt to live alone. You have fallen down, reached rock bottom and risen. You have watched your friends post Hallmark photos with their spouses and toddlers. Seeing their content faces, you have wished, ‘Why could I not have that!’ But then you see your life, happy and peaceful, and you have said to yourself ‘That would have been nice. But this is good too. It is nice actually!’
The one thing you teach yourself is that you do not need anyone. You have made yourself so independent. You are better off alone.
How do you unlearn all of that?
The man I married
Last year, probably a week away from today, my husband and I were on our honeymoon in Switzerland. We were travelling in a train. A lady (reasonably older) had got on with a lot of luggage. She was struggling with it to get on. With great difficulty she managed to find herself a spot to stand with her three suitcases. The way she was struggling with them, they seemed bulky and heavy. She had barely given a sigh of relief as people started getting down at the next stop and she spotted a sight to sit. The problem was to reach the seat she had to pass through the stairs. She started dragging all her three suitcases towards the empty seat up the stairs. Other people were looking at her and trying to give her space to move. My husband walked up to her and offered to move her luggage for her. He did it for her. One by one while she looked at him gratefully. She said to my husband, “You are very kind, gentleman”.
I was smiling in pride.
There are so many other things he has done.
When he was unwell, but he still volunteered to drop my sister to the airport.
When I was buying a doll for my niece in Paris, and looked at the price, and he told me not to think about it. And went ahead and paid.
When he gets chicken momos for me on his way back from office.
When he tells my Maa-in-law to get my favorite peda from our hometown!
When he makes Maggi with pyaaz on Sundays!
But the problem is when the daily grind gets to us, the atta, chawal, maid, loan instalments, we stop seeing the bigger picture. We forget the person we married. We forget the good in them.
My Life Now
Few days ago, I had gone to the mall to shop for an upcoming vacation. My husband was also at the same mall but he had to buy electronics, so he was shopping separately. I was searching for clothes, trying them out but I had no clue what I liked. I would try on something, but without his approving nod and smile, I had no idea if I looked good. I bought nothing.
Another day, I called him to ask what time he would be coming home. He said he would be late. Disappointed, I ate alone. I put on Netflix. I felt tempted to watch the next episode of Delhi Crime. But I ended up watching something else. Something I do not care about. Not because I cannot watch it without him. But because what is the fun watching without us commenting on it together!
On my first anniversary
Marriage requires a lot of effort. And since it is such a life term project, it gets exhausting! What is good and what is bad? I guess it is like that day in the mall. Or the day alone at home. The home and the outside world suddenly becomes weird without the one person you did not know until a couple of years back. And you feel lost.
To all those couples like me in a new marriage, hang in there! Perfect couples are fictional! Remember the movie, Honeymoon Travels Pvt Ltd! Half of our problems exist because we feel that others have it easier.
Never ever feel put down or disheartened with rough patches. It is all part and parcel of the package deal!
Remember, for better or for worse!
In sickness, and in health!
To love and to cherish!
And last but not the least, remember the person you married.
Cheers to all the real couples out there!
Haste haste (Ladte Ladte) Kat Jayein Raste, Zindagi Yoon Hi Chalti Rahe,
Khushi mile ya ghum, badleinge na hum, duniya chahe badalti rahe!