When I was a kid I waited eagerly for festivals. More people in the house, pichkari, pathaka, new clothes, cousins, sweets, fun, laughter. What was not to like about it?
But as I grew up, I started hearing things which made me cringe..
When I was a kid I waited eagerly for festivals. More people in the house, pichkari, pathaka, new clothes, cousins, sweets, fun, laughter. What was not to like about it?
But as I grew up, I started hearing things which made me cringe..
When I was about 14, I had watched a television series on Sony called Hubahu starring Sandhya Mridul. She played the role of identical twin sisters. One sister, Aditi lived in India. She was a homemaker married to a college professor with a son. She lived a boring, stable life. The other sister, Ananya was very glamourous. She lived in some foreign country. Wikipedia says Bangkok although I do not remember.. This sister is single, rich, has a luxurious lifestyle and a wannabe boyfriend. The sister in India lives a stable live with her husband and kid. One day they both decide to switch places for a week. (They are identical). Due to some unavoidable circumstances, they end up continuing in their switched lives for some more time. At the end, they realize they like their new life better. They end up continuing like that.
When I had watched this show at that age I had thought how could the woman with a family just leave everything. She had a husband! A kid! I had also found nothing with her life that was so bad that she just gave it up. I was so judgmental…
Aditi used to wake up every morning with a jump as her alarm rang. She would rush to get her kid ready. The rest of the day would be lost in household work…Cribbing. Stressing. And cribbing some more. And stressing some more..
When I was studying in the U.S., in eighth grade or ninth grade, in one of the class discussions the teacher had asked what are some of the reasons for depression. One girl had raised her hand and said ‘monotony’. No it was not those last few residual answers where all obvious answers such as loss of a loved one, loss of job, divorce, break-up was consumed. It was one of the first few answers.
“That’s right”, The teacher had replied. “Getting up every day, same time, same routine with nothing interesting to look forward to in life can be depressing for some people.”
I had found this very odd. To me, it was not a valid cause. What else is everybody supposed to do every single day anyway, I had thought. I guess I was too dumb…
I guess I wake up the same way as Aditi does. Every morning with panic. Thinking I have missed the alarm. I will be late to work.. I will get scolded… The maid would have knocked on the door and left… I will have to do the work…I will be even more late to work… And there is a deadline…Not only will I go to work late but leave from work late too… House work. And office work…
Maybe it is everybody’s fantasy to just leave our current life… Leave everything and vanish… Aditi just got the opportunity…
I watched Gold yesterday. I wish I could review the movie….
I usually do not watch a night show during the week days because I have to get up early thanks to work. But yesterday, I ended up watching the night show as there was only one show in the nearby theater and the whole family had planned to go. With the trailers and the non-smoking advertisements, these night shows easily start by 10 pm.
At home, 10 pm is the time when I mercilessly switch off television, irrespective of how engaging our current Netflix show is, and tell my husband it is time to “shut down”.
This is followed by scrubbing the kitchen slabs and gas stove…
Anyway, coming back to yesterday, here I was at 10 pm daring to watch a night show along with my family. During the first half of the movie, I tried unsuccessfully to keep my eyes open. From whatever little I managed to watch, Amit Sadh looked good, and I found Mouni Roy’s character annoying.
After interval, I was completely asleep. I even had a dream which involved the movie. Now, I am even more confused as to what was part of the movie, and what was part of my dream. Hubby tried his best to keep me awake by pulling my leg every time Mouni appeared on screen – “This angry wife is just like you.” But in vain. I was too sleepy to even react to him. However, in between, I would wake up and ask him,
“Who is in the semi final?”
“Did the final match start yet?”
I sounded a lot like my grandmother who does not pay any attention to TV serials but keeps disturbing everybody else who is watching intently by asking what is going on.
By the end of the movie, blissfully asleep I had forgotten where I was. When people started getting up for the national anthem, I tried to reach my tummy to remove my seat belt, thinking I am in a flight. Then I woke up, realizing that I am in a theater. This awareness that I was not in an aircraft gave me a strange sense of satisfaction because I thought at least I don’t have to travel…
This incident reminded me of the first time I had fallen asleep in the theater as a kid. I am sure I would have fallen asleep as a baby many times but this is the first time that I could remember. It was a charity show of the movie, Maachis. My parents and sister had loved the movie and the “crowd”. Those were the days of single screen theatres and not multiplexes. Families took balcony seats. There would be whistling, screaming, dancing, clapping and what not going on in the front. But being a charity show, the tickets were very expensive. Being a small town, half of the town was present and my parents and sister had spent the time before the start of the movie in socializing with acquaintances / friends they were bumping into.
I don’t think I ever watched Maachis properly after growing up. Whenever, somebody mentions Maachis, I have a very faint memory of lots of people waiting outside the cinema hall for the movie to start. But it is a good, uplifting feeling (contrary to the serious subject of the movie).
In a recent road trip to a hill station I kept playing songs from the 90’s like Latka dikha diya tumne, Muqabla, Taal se Taal mila etc. My niece was also traveling with me and in an attempt to match up to her I had downloaded some English songs too. Since I am not up to date with anything other than Bollywood, my list started with Shape of You, and ended with Cheap Thrills. Thankfully, she had requested me to download song new songs (which I had no idea about).
I realized that our generation still knows songs from the 60’s 70’s etc but the next generation does not know any songs from the 80’s,90’s.
But why did these songs make me so happy?
Probably because of the way they make me feel…
It is the association with songs / movies that make us like them years later.
Associations. Memories. And the games our mind plays with them…
That was then. Gold for me will always be the first movie I watched after my wedding, in which I fell asleep!
I went to the beauty parlour yesterday to get a haircut. Just a haircut. Nothing more. After calling five salons where the “senior stylist” and “creative consultants” were charging a bomb I decided to go to the salon I used to visit regularly. Now, I moved so this is quite far from my new place. Nonetheless, I thought I may go for a long drive with husband. This was theoretically a good idea as it was raining and hubby was playing nice 90’s songs on Bluetooth. Yes songs like Aafreen Aafreen, and Muqala Muqabla Laila o Laila make me very very happy. Was happily singing alone those songs until I came across this gentleman.
There is a motorcycle also tied on top of the roof of the car. This person thinks it is okay to drive like this on the highway in the rain. Anyway, moving on…
So I reached the parlour. Now the stylist came to take a look at my hair. I told him I need a haircut.
“Madam, your hair has breakage. Go for smoothening.”
“I have already got smoothening done twice!! My hair has become very thin! I don’t want smoothening! See how much hairfall has happened! Just a haircut please”.
“Hair fall not because of smoothening Madam. You are not maintaining!”
“I am using the same professional shampoo and conditioner you made me buy last time.”
“Well madam, your smoothened hair is fine. It is so smooth. It is your fresh hair that is growing that is curly.” He lifted a strand of my hair. Magically at that moment the end of the hair strand stood still, and the little hair he was holding pulled itself out obediently. “See Madam. Problem with your original hair growing back. Not with smoothened hair”.
“But if you smoothen you will smoothen the entire hair right? You will not selectively smoothen the hair that has just started growing?”
“Yes madam. It will all become smooth and silky”
“I don’t want smoothening. I want a haircut. Please do the best you can with it, some layers to create volume”.
“At least get hair spa madam.”
I got convinced for the hair spa. Now a different guy started doing the hair spa. He had overheard my conversation with the previous hair stylist.
“Madam, which shampoo are you using?”
“Which one?” He gave me two options. One started with Bio something.
“I don’t remember. I usually buy the Orange one , if it is not available, white one”.
“Madam, you should not buy the white one. It is for dandruff. You do not have dandruff.”
“These shampoos are not available in all supermarkets. Whatever is available, I take”.
“White one is also good Madam. But you should use this one.”
He picked up another bottle. I looked at the price and told him I did not want it. So he decided to go back to convincing me on smoothening.
“There is an offer going on Madam. 50 percent off.”
“Even if you do it for free, I don’t want it.”
I guess that did it. He did not mention smoothening again.
“Madam your hair has become frizzy. You don’t use hair oil?”
“I do. Just did oil massage yesterday.” I replied proudly.
“Parachute coconut oil.”
“Do you heat it?”
“I do not heat it. But when I get a massage from a beautician, she usually heats it.”
“You should not heat it madam!”
“Actually you guys had told me to NEVER put oil after getting smoothening. But I still do.”
“That is right Madam. You should not use oil.”
I wanted to ask him why he asked me about oil in the first place, that too the brand and heating and minute details.
Now we were off to the hair cut. The only thing I had asked him to do was to do a cut that would fake some volume. Given my thin hair, this was quite a challenge. Nonetheless he did a decent job and was pleased with his work.
In an attempt to fool me, he backcombed my hair and lifted half of it in a puff while bringing the rest of it in the front from my side. He told me how versatile my new hair cut was as I could try this hairdo too.
I wondered when would I use this hairstyle…..Retro Bollywood party?
Then he removed the puff and put my hair back to normal. He did a centre parting showing me the layers. He was happy with himself and said that it has added volume. I asked him to bring a mirror and show me from the back.
There was no hair in the back, because he had taken all the hair in the front to fake the volume! I looked at him. He took the entire hair backwards to show me the shape from the back. Now I had no hair in the front. Just the first layer which was making me look like an ape.
He realized what he had done and moved the entire hair to the front again.
“Thank you” I said.
I was somewhat proud of myself for not getting convinced for a smoothening again. This was a day after refusing to get upper lip done. Maybe I should start a fashion blog. But my blog will be about how to say no to makeup and hair bullies!!
Would you be interested in moderating a panel discussion? We would be discussing how women are enjoying outdoor spaces.
I felt a slight fluttering in my stomach. I drank some water.
At the age of 5 – Somewhere in a convent school in Patna
Mother looks at her daughter’s quiz answer sheet. 8/10. Match the following.
Question – Something to keep you dry in the rain
Answer written by the little girl: Ren cot.
It is marked wrong.
Mother: Beta, here you had to match the description in the left side with the options on the right side. Rain coat was not in the options. It was umbrella.
Little girl: Ma’am forgot to put ren cot. That is why I wrote it.
Mother: This was not Fill in the blanks. This was matching. Read the question properly.
Little girl: Maybe Ma’am does not have ren cot. Now she knows.
At the age of 9 – Same school in Patna
And the winner is Tanvi Sinha….
The mother and the father are beaming, clicking pictures.
At the age of 11 – Same school in Patna
Teacher: Tanvi, we are recommending your name for representing our school at the Interschool Quiz competition, Manthan. It will be aired on local television after two weeks.
Girl: Ma’am! On TV! If I don’t do well, everyone will make fun of me!
Teacher: Opportunity is knocking at your door. And you are saying no? You think we are asking all the students? We are asking only the toppers. You must go Tanvi. Prepare well. Give it your best shot.
The girl was terrified at the thought of failing on television. She backed out.
At the age of 13 – Junior high school in New York City
The teenager raises her hand to answer a question. She has just started talking. There is a giggle. Someone mocks her accent.
Teacher: Let her talk. Than Vee, go ahead.
The teenager becomes quiet.
It was not worth going through this humiliation. She decided never to raise her hand again.
At the age of 15- PTA Meeting. Creative writing class. High school in New York city
The father is dressed in a black suit and tie. Mother is wearing trousers and a blazer. They are at their formal best. They enter with their gawky teenage daughter.
Teacher: Oh Tanvi is a gift! She is awesome. She has great story telling skills. She is logical with her thoughts, and articulates her thoughts very well. Her grammar is perfect. I just have one area of improvement for her.
Teenager replies meekly with a smile: Class participation!
Teacher: Yes! I would like you to participate more in the class discussions. You never say a word! And when I read your assignments, I am mesmerized. Imagine if you would say all of that in class!
Teenager: Yes. I know. I can write very well. But when I talk I feel conscious.
Teacher: Don’t be. With your intelligence, you cannot say anything wrong.
At the age of 23 – Mumbai at home
Click here to see the CA Final Results. Enter Registration number.
As tears streamed down her cheeks, she wondered.
I was never the beautiful one.
I was never the popular one.
All I was ever, was the intelligent one.
I am not even that anymore?
Who am I?
She passed the exam a year later.
At the age of 24.. At an official training. Banquet hall of a 5 star hotel
She is sitting in the last round table. She is not making any eye contact with the trainer, afraid he may ask a question. At the same time she is nodding, pretending to listen.
This is so boring. He mugged up all this stuff! What if I had to be the trainer? Nah.. they would never ask me. Imagine if the training was about something I knew. Or something I was good at. Then I would be the star. But what am I good at…… There has got to be something… Think…think. Yeah. Bollywood! If there was a Bollywood training I could totally take it… One session could be on songs. With a quiz. Guess the movie from the song. I could also do a session on Bollywood relationships. Guess – Who was Riya Sen’s grandmother…
Name three sister duos from Bollywood. Yeah… I would totally rock it.
Same age. A random office lunch
Someone made a joke. Everybody laughed. The woman barely listened. She is lost in her thoughts as always.
“Tanvi did not laugh.” – Guy 1.
“She did not understand the joke.” – Someone else
“Don’t talk like that. She will get angry.” – Someone else.
“Is she angry? I can’t tell! She is so expressionless!!! Tanvi make an angry face!”
He has a hearty laugh.
At the age of 26. She qualified as a CA 2 years ago. Working in a reputed firm. Year-end appraisal.
Four people are looking at her like hawks in a conference room. One by one they start talking. About how she has not achieved the goals. How she is good for nothing. How she is a big, miserable failure.
She listens. In the beginning she tries to defend herself. But then she gives up. She wants them to stop talking. But no. They want to make sure it is CLEAR to her, point by point. Every word is a dagger. It pierces through her heart, her soul and her being.
Don’t start crying here. Be dignified. At least control yourself till you reach the washroom.
Who took away her confidence?
Was it those bullying kids?
Was it failure in a professional exam which is known to be so difficult?
Was it people from work?
From a little girl who was confident even when she was wrong, she had grown up to be a nervous woman who felt she was wrong even when she was right. Who gave the right to every person to take away her confidence. Who trusted others’ belief of who she was, more than who she knew she was.
She read the email again.
Would you be interested in moderating a panel discussion? We would be discussing how women are enjoying outdoor spaces
Opportunity is knocking at your door. She remembered her elementary school teacher’s words.
With your intelligence, you would never say anything wrong. She remembered her high school teacher’s words.
Yes. She typed. Send.
Beyond the doors. Bangalore. March 9th, 2018
I reached the venue. A little nervous. A little unsure of myself. But super excited.
A woman with the sweetest face and the most contagious smile was talking. She was not trying to inspire anyone. She was talking logically. She was talking about herself and her experiences. Smooth, natural flow of thought. She was just being herself. But the audience was mesmerized. And so was I.
Somebody asked her how come she is so positive all the time? Does she think about dark clouds?
“Why should I think of the dark clouds when I can think about the light clouds. This is me!” – She said flashing that beautiful, confident, ravishing smile matter-of-factly.
She was Dhanya Ravi.
I was overwhelmed with emotion. That one line uplifted my spirits.
This is me…..
I am Tanvi. I get nervous when I have to speak in public. My stomach hurts. My palms get sweaty. I tremble. This is me!
I say Umm and You know after every word. This is me!
I will roll my tongue over my teeth, while I am still talking to you to check if my lipstick has spread over my teeth. This is me!
I may mess up this discussion. But it is okay. This is me!
I had a great session. Enjoyed every moment of it. Loved talking to such accomplished women. The smiles, the nods, and the claps from the audience gave me a high.
Who gave me back my confidence?
Dhanya Ma’am, you have written in your profile, ‘All good things come in a small package.”
But let me tell you this Ma’am. You are not small.
You are bigger that our insecurities and our egos.
You are bigger than our inner demons and inner battles that we struggle with every day.
You are bigger than our shallow concerns and problems which actually do not matter, but we are too full of ourselves to believe it.
You are bigger than all of us who love feeling like victims, the moment the smallest thing goes wrong in life.
You are bigger than the people who try to make others feel small just so that they can feel big.
You are bigger than any person I have ever met in my life.
I love you Ma’am. You have made me wiser. In one day! I have gained my confidence back after years. I promise myself that I will never let anybody take away my confidence again.
Yesterday I came across something in my News feed that infuriated me:
A restaurant named ‘Second wife restaurant’. Quoting from their website:
“Second Wife is one of the fastest growing food tech companies in Bangalore. For great food and good times. Second Wife cooks like your wife and may be better than your wife also. Experience our taste and quality of our food a wide range of vegetarian and non-vegetarian delicacies with distinct aroma and flavour achieved by carefully blending a host of spices and condiments.”
Assumption : Sole purpose of a woman is to cook for her husband!!
Men, if you want warm, home-cooked food spend some money and get a cook!! Not a wife.
Women of this generation probably manage to get some help. If not someone who cooks all meals, then maybe some one who helps in chopping, slicing, dough making extra.
But what about the generation of our mothers? How much of their time have they spent in the kitchen?
My mother loves cooking. She is awesome at it too. I have tried to keep cooks unsuccessfully. Sometimes, she doesn’t like their hygiene, or taste, or timing. She stands in the kitchen throughout while the cook works directing her. She says if she is standing in the kitchen, observing and instructing a cook, might as well do it herself! She also says that the time she spends waiting for her, she can be done by then. Also, even with a cook, most nice things which she would prefer to cook herself!
I on the other hand, can let go completely. Being a lazy person, I can comfortably sit and do nothing, while the cook does her job. As long as she washes her hands, washes vegetables, rice properly I am okay with compromising on the taste. Because in return, I get my time! And it is worth it! I would rather spend that time reading, writing, jogging, gymming, watching Netflix or even doing nothing!
I cook once in six months / three months. When there are guests over. Or when I try out a new recipe from the internet. When I have the time. When I have nothing better to do. No matter how well I cook, or how great it turns out the maximum that can happen is someone will eat well and say, “Very nice!”
To do it every day, from scratch, for a lifetime is just too much!. Whether you can afford help but you still choose to cook (or even if you don’t have an option) it is something that you do all the time with a lot of time and effort!!
I remember having a barbecue party at my cousin’s place in Singapore. We had ordered some continental chicken appetizer. My mother and aunt had mixed their Indian spices along with that chicken and managed to make an awesome biryani out of it on a very short notice!
Once biryani was served, we started eating without even bothering to say that it was good! We, however had not failed to applaud the men who had set up the barbecue! After some time, when my Bhabhi started eating after feeding her kid, she said how nice the biryani was. My aunt said “Oh thank God! No one was saying anything I was wondering how it came out. I was looking at Tanu’s face, when she took the first bite..”
Sometimes my mother tries a new recipe, spends an awful lot of time on it and gives it to me in my tiffin I love it. I think of texting her but I forget because I am busy at work. Sometimes even once I reach home I forgot to say anything. Sometimes I remember only when she asks. The amount of effort and time that goes in procuring the supplies, planning, cooking! Oh God! And thankless children don’t even remember to acknowledge!
Men often say things like “Mera bhi credit hai, mutton main laaya, wash kiya etc” or some variation of that. And we find it cute also. Lazy, annual cooks like me get a lot of attention for their one time special recipe!
But the ones who do it, all the time it is really a VERY difficult thing to do on a daily basis, for a lifetime! Nobody will say to you everyday that the roti, chawal, daal, was good.
I know the post started out bashing the expectation that women should cook. But let me end it with gratitude for the ones who do it every day of their life! Thank you, mom, aunts, grand moms, sister, cousins and everyone else who does it! I am sure you are not thanked enough!!
I keep hearing the story of an older family friend.
He must be in his 80’s now. He has never been married. As per the legend, he used to be a handsome man in his youth. Romantic. Desirable. Rumour has it that he looked just like like Rajesh Khanna.
He wanted a “love marriage.” Whenever any “ladki walas” came home for a rishta, he would pretend to limp. Or something else. He was filmy. He was very clear that he would not compromise on his partner.
Years went by. The perfect one never came along. There were some rumours of an alleged brief fling with another lady who also never married. He remained single.
He is currently in an old age home. His siblings’ children do visit him. His story has been passed on to my generation by parents as an example of what happens when you are too dreamy! You end up alone!
“You marry while you can!” is what elders tell us. Or even older cousins who married someone without falling in love. I do not want to make this post about arranged marriage vs love marriage. I have written enough about it.
Would you marry someone who are not even attracted to, or have a connection with because he can provide you a stable life?
Or would you marry someone with whom you have a spark yet you are unsure of stability in the future?
What if you don’t even have the second option yet. Would you wait? Or would you go ahead with a secured life?
We have not seen the future. Someone who seems stable today may not be so in the future. So what are you left with then?
And if you marry for “love”, then well if the love doesn’t last?
Can chemistry be developed over time?
But should it be so forced? Isn’t it easier when you already have it?
Elders love to say “You should marry someone who likes you. Not someone who you like.” I think only Indian elders say this!! Is it too much to ask that BOTH should like each other?
I remember talking to a friend of mine who is older than me. She is also a practising counselor. One of the girls was complaining that she was being pressurized for an arranged marriage. But she did not find the guys her parents were seeing for her interesting. But the guy she was seeing was not interested in marrying her. My counselor friend said to her, “You are looking for a man who can be a friend, plus you should have chemistry, plus commitment, all in one person!”
“Well, isn’t that what a relationship is supposed to be?” I immediately jumped to her rescue.
“Ideally yes. But it may not happen. You have to pick what matters most to you.”
The answer is never so simple. People who have been married will tell you what matters. Or even what is missing.
Just a thought. A random one.
All women probably received messages from unknown men on Facebook. I usually block the ones who send inappropriate messages. But off late I have noticed young boys sending messages. When I click on their pictures, they look so innocent. They look like they are easily 10 years younger than me! Maybe even more. Some of them are probably in school or college. Minors! They send the following kind of messages:
Why you are not replying!
I really like you!
Did I do something wrong!
One young man had sent a poem also. It was accompanied by a picture of a man literally taking out his heart on his hand. Jaan hatheli par le aaye? Please note that it was not a cute red heart shaped emoticon that we send on whatsapp. It was a picture of a heart – the organ oozing out of a body with blood!! The poem had rhymes. I thought at least I should give him credit for that. Until one of my friends who read it said it was copied from a regional movie.
Had they been older, I would have ignored and blocked. It is too late to educate the older ones! But I don’t think it is right to give up on the younger boys. Boys who probably do not even have the guts to talk to me in person, look me in the eye, or would probably call me Didi if at all they did talk to me in person, think it is okay to address me as darling!
I had a discussion with few male friends on this. They said that these boys are trying their luck. They probably send these messages to so many women every day and they may get a response too. They also said that these boys are perfectly aware that they should not be behaving this way. But they don’t care. They do it anyway.
One of the thoughts that stayed with me was ‘Did I do something wrong? Tell me please.’
The 17-18 year old probably does not know that it is NOT okay to address an unknown woman on the internet as ‘gorgeous’. He thinks it is a compliment. Something I would like. I would appreciate. Be flattered. He has not chosen a term like ‘sexy’ or ‘hot’. He has gone far in his vocabulary to choose a respectful term.
Can we blame him for asking me if he has done anything wrong?
I want to ask him had I approached me in person? Would he come to me in a public place or on the street and tried to talk to me with an opening line of ‘Hi beautiful’. I want to tell him that he should not speak to women on the internet in a way any different from how he would speak to them in person. But we all know that does not happen. Every one has a voice on the internet. Every one hides behind anonymity. And what do we teach this boy about approaching women in person anyway? It is not like he would be used to ‘asking women’ out. Dating is not part of our culture. His only benchmark would be Bollywood which would have taught him:
Hasi to phasi
Ladki ki naa mein haa hai
Lover boy will always win. As long as he keeps trying. The means do not matter. The end does. Whether he stalks. Or threatens. Or tries to commit suicide. At the end the woman will realize his ‘true love’.
I remember talking to a man who from the US. He must be around 55. His son who was about 15 had started dating. He was telling me that the son is very much ‘in love’ with his girlfriend. He used to invite her over to his place along with other school friends. He said he talks to his son about how to treat his girlfriend. That he should respect her. He said his son had written a poem for the girl. This man never knew his son was interested in writing. He was proud of his son. Father would tell his son about his girlfriend when he was that age and how he used to ask women out by inviting them to events that they were interested in so that they could not resist!
‘I have taught my boy right!’ he said proudly.
We have not taught our boys right. We have to accept it. Rather, this is something we have not taught at all!. No mature adult – teacher, parents, etc will talk to them about dating, approaching women etc. It is not because people don’t date in our country. They are on their own. At the mercy of Bollywoord and other immature friends. We don’t think it is appropriate to talk about it. We think if we talk about it we would encourage it. We don’t realize that they would do it anyway. As much as we would like to deny.
Coming back to the boy who sent me the message this one is for you:
A woman who you don’t know may choose not to speak to you. It does not mean she is arrogant. It does not mean you are ugly. She doesn’t even know you. You messaged. She ignored. Move on.
Even though it is a compliment addressing unknown women as ‘gorgeous’ may not be the best way to start a conversation. If you know her, and you are already friends with her you can probably compliment her. ‘Darling’ again should not be used for unknown women. Ever!
What you say, how much you say, depends on the response you receive. It is not rocket science to figure it out. No response. Stop. She responds in a friendly way. Continue. She doesn’t like something you say. Stop. Apologize.
There are women who have public profiles on social media. But it is mainly for their work to have a connect with their target audience. It does not necessarily mean that she has put her pictures for attention, and then when you give her that attention, she is being all arrogant!
Lastly, most importantly. Don’t keep trying. If someone is not responding to your messages, it means they are not interested. Respect the choice. She does not even owe you an explanation. It does not mean that you should feel insulted. Women have brains too. And thinking and decision-making capabilities. They have their own likes. It does not make you a loser. Please do not associate your self-worth with the responses you get from women – in the virtual world or in the real world!
Wish you all a very Happy New Year!!
I feel New Year’s eve is the most overrated time of the year. We feel that we MUST do something. If we don’t, we feel we are missing out on all the fun. When we plan a party, or vacation everything is overpriced, and may not even be worth it! Then there are safety concerns with people going crazy on alcohol.
For single people, the holidays and New Year’s eve is quite a downer! Torturous may be. It is depressing to see so many lights, love, brightness, buzz, life around which only further brings out the emptiness in your own lives, or memories of better days that are now over. No matter what you do – quiet, house party or loud pub party the connection that you long for with another human being is still missing! Been single for long, became single recently, not single last year but found yourself single this year? I don’t know which time of the year is toughest for singles – birthdays, valentine’s day or new year’s. I would say, Christmas holidays till New years.
I know some of you were feeling very low during this time. I received messages. Hope you are feeling better now. I was also feeling low little after Christmas. It was mainly because I was missing my niece who was visiting the week before.
I was not at home around the New Year’s time. I was out and my grandmother (who is very old and forgets a lot) kept asking my parents for me every time she heard any sound. Even when someone moved a chair. She did not realize how long I was gone or whether I had been out for a day or two. Whether it was a holiday or I was at work or sleeping or just locked up inside my room. She just knew she had not seen me for what seemed to her like a while (she does not have much track of time) and was asking for me again and again.
I remember showing one of my childhood photos with my grandmother to my best friend, a few years ago who lived in the US.. She had lived there all her life. She was not in touch with her father’s side of the family who lived in her home country. And her grandmother from her mother’s side had passed away. In the picture, I had just started walking, and my grandmother was pointing towards me and beaming.
“Wow,” she said. “She has loved you for so long!” I was about 20 at that time. When she said this, I had realized how lucky I was to be loved by my grandmother. It is one of those things we take for granted.
Coming back to the present, when I finally came home after New Year’s I gave a big hug to my grandmother. Her face lit up. Looking at her, and her eagerness to meet me, an image flashed before my eyes. Of a grandfather who lost his 28-year-old granddaughter in the fire in Mumbai. She was celebrating her birthday. I could not read the article and had put the paper away. But the picture I could not forget. God can be so cruel?
The fire tragedy in Mumbai was unbelievable and cruel. My office used to be in Kamala Mills about seven – eight years ago. I don’t know why nothing changes in our country. The families of the victims of Uphaar tragedy, and the Carlton Towers fire have dedicated their lives to working for fire safety. I have been following their work. Still, human life is not precious here. One preventable accident after another.. There were other horrible incidents around the country too around which I would not get into..
With so many negative feelings and mixed thoughts, I was pretty sure I will have a crappy new year’s. But to my biggest surprise, I ended up having a great time. Probably one of the best in recent times. Something I had not expected in the days before. It was like a roller coaster ride from very low to very high. If I can sum up my thoughts, I would say this:
Be grateful for everything. Cherish what you have. You don’t know what will happen tomorrow. Life can change any moment.
Keep hope. Good things will happen. Bad days will not go on forever. You don’t know what will happen tomorrow. Life can change any moment.
The holidays are a time of celebration.
But it is also the time that hurts…
For not everybody is with their family.
For some may have lost someone this year.
Someone may be alone.
Someone is learning to live without someone.
Someone’s family is incomplete today.
Someone’s landscape of life has changed.
But the holidays are also a time for hope.
Of happiness, prosperity and peace
For we are all so brave,
Through our struggles and fears.
Another year is coming.
I hope this year that awaits you,
Is better than the year that was.
Merry Christmas to you,
And to everyone you care for.